It's cold isn't it that's why i told you to stay in the boat you want to come back in now come on come on beauty come get in the boat right here yes yes good dog.

Okay now let's stay in the boat because the water's really cold okay trust me i speak from experience hey folks how are you joe here you got beauty with me there's a reason for that and if you want to know why stay tuned we're at the creekside camp this is the first time i've been here in.

Six seven months so we're gonna spend the day out see if we can catch a couple brook trout maybe have a fire work on the uh the camp and i'll talk to you a little bit it's this way cool there she is.

Standing strong a lot of people had their doubts a lot of people had their notes in the comments i get it it's not traditional and it looks like not the nicest thing but it's big and it's up off the ground and it's protected.

That's all i want right on cue there's joe's plane hey good girl don't even remember putting that tarps hold up fine although i felt it and it feels like the waxiness is gone.

Maybe not gone but diminished but again that sat up there for better part of seven months snow and rain and wind and everything on it like crazy so and speaking of snow the old friend mr snow pile is still kicking solid as ever.

I'm gonna get a fire going i left this wood here and it's bone dry still nice cedar so let's split some of this up i got the old council tool axe with me today i like it it's a nice midsize i sharpened it up real good choke you girl.

Watch out baby the frame there girl and go back up here you want this go get it these are too long so i'm just not too long but.

They're longer than i want just cut them down and split them down okay there we go it's joe's first rodeo pretty decent curls with that eye actually.

Again this is seasoned dry cedar which is very light and acts as freshly sharpened so it's not just it's not skills not just skills they're gone everywhere as you can see the ground it's pretty wet.

 all right so we're gonna find some logs to put underneath before we get our fire going so that it has a better chance of actually going and not just getting snuffed out beauty the golden doodle hey.

Just aloof as they come  nice big round i'm going to split that half just for the fun of splitting it yeah i love that cedar boy oh so these are going to make some really really good buffer.

Pieces turn into fuel after slick that looks nice as far as wood buffers from wetness go you know how many of those that you see in the new day huh.

I've got some stages of kindling and fuel here i've got first stage that i'm going to put on after it's ignite ignited ignit we've got a handful of shavings and then my fuel's up there and this nice feather stick.

She's going to go up like nobody's business put this underneath shavings i've got a brace back here so i can brace oh that cedar smells so nice so very nice i can brace the pieces so it doesn't smother the fire right off the hop nice pop.

Nice smell nice warmth you know all the benefits of a cedar fire she likes the fire she must be a little chilled sitting next to it there all soaking wet good girl anyway.

Tripper's gone i've been gone for a few weeks and i've uh i've put off making this i already did one dead dog video i don't want to do another we were traveling down south and uh he didn't eat for a couple days and we thought it was because we were traveling we thought he was just.

Out of sorts because he noticed like he was starting to look a little weak and lethargic and stuff so took the vet and his stomach twisted and as soon as they told me his stomach twisted i was super concerned because my mom's friend had a a bernese and that stomach twisted that was the end of it.

And um so we did the surgery we prolonged our stay down there we did the surgery and a couple days later that was it it didn't work it reversed and he's gone i feel very bad i feel very bad for everyone involved i feel bad for my kids.

For you guys for my wife for me i feel bad for beauty that's why she's here with me she's kind of become attached to me since then she's been looking for him and stuff i did something that i don't know that i should have done but i i lied to my kids.

And i told them that we gave them away i just i couldn't bring myself to tell them emerald just got done dealing with scout and autumn is messed up right now with all these movies portraying death and it's just like she has so many questions and she's so worried about it and.

Everything right now that i think she'd just become obsessed about it if i told her and i'm telling you this because please if anyone knows me in real life from who knows my kids please don't come up to us and say oh sorry about trevor just don't even mention it please because they're okay with thinking that.

He's gone running around with a bunch of other dogs somewhere i just couldn't do it and i don't know if that's right or wrong but that's what i did the guy had such a shitty life he had such a a bad break.

You know what i mean like right off the hop coming to me at nine weeks of age on a plane scared beyond belief bad reading which i didn't know about broke both of his elbows genetic bone disease he was starting to limp on the back after after all that surgery after all.

That money after everything right starting to limp on the back ones now so scared so scared of the vet because we had to keep going back so many times to get him um therapy for it and stuff and just he's had a rough go man i tried the only good things i think was doing.

That show with him and like him and autumn are like that you know what i mean things i've learned from that money doesn't fix anything i was poor my whole life i wanted a dutch shepherd for a real long time i finally got a little bit of money.

Finally was able to get that shepard i did not i did not do my research on where i got them from i just i was super rushed to get them so i got them from the first place that i could get them at that time again i was probably hurting from scout still you know what i mean trying to fill that void i'm not making excuses this is my.

Fault the whole thing's my fault i would never again order a dog online like not seeing it first i don't recommend a dutch shepherd for anyone who like isn't like working them all the time and and i paid for a high-end training form that i did with them and that i.

Sent them to go do and again money it didn't matter right like i didn't have any money with scout and we did it all together and everything was good i had enough money with tripper and spent i'm not this is not an ex brag this is i'm ashamed of this.

Uh training buying him getting him uh fixed up so many very different times of surgeries and stuff twenty five thousand thirty thousand dollars into this dog no joke and whatever i don't care it's the money's not the thing i'm not the point is that money doesn't fix.

Things i'm sorry i'm sorry to everyone i feel very bad the whole thing is bad the whole thing is bad three years don't worry you're not going to see beauty in all the videos from now on i.

Just like i said she's been attached to me she was looking for him and stuff so and she's a really good dog i just uh i can't have a fluffy white dog poodle bouncing around in my videos and stuff and i don't know about getting another dog for me i'm i can't think about that right now it's.

Too much i feel very responsible for all the bad things that happen with tripper so i just don't even deserve a dog right now i'm sorry i'm sorry for everything i'm sorry for crying i'm sorry for not bringing him out as much as i should have but sorry for being so hard on him.

It was rough man his whole life anyways that's the story um i'm sorry emerald if you watch this i'm sorry too for lying to you i hope you understand why i did it beauty is emerald's dog and they're they've got a really good.

Relationship and she's she's a tough tough golden doodle good girl go on over there good girl you're fine you think beauty hey you good girl so last video was very uh eventful there's a bunch of stuff i learned that i wanted to.

From that i wanted to talk about i i have zero experience with white water you've seen all my experience with water it's very very very minimal um and i actually have a course book like i've said a couple times now the madawaska canoe center this uh this year coming up so i am going to learn how how to read the water better and how to.

Paddle it better and and everything like that i also have a white water boat coming in i'm getting a 15 foot prospector in expedition car kevlar from swift so expedition kevlar is their version of like tough stuff or whatever so it's the tougher version 15-foot prospector it's got the right.

Rocker on it it's got like you know like my adirondack pack boat is very flat it's a flat water boat this one's got rocker on both sides more of a tumble home so it's better for white water a lot of people use prospectors in that situation and i'll use be able to use it in flat water too and stuff so it's a good boat it's a called the combi and.

There's two seats they both come out i'll be able to use it with emerald and stuff and anyways uh i don't have a lot of experience with white water so normally i don't like attach anything to my boat like i wasn't even thinking about i wasn't even thinking i was gonna run anything.

Crazy like so earlier in that day if you guys watched the video i ran a couple rapids and some that were even more so rapidly than than the one i bailed on uh that i dunked in but i just didn't want to get out of the boat i was late in the night and i was tired.

Of portaging and it was right there and everything i could have done i just i felt i i didn't feel confident that's the thing i second guess myself a bunch of times whenever i do anything silly out in the woods i usually feel pretty confident about it you know what i mean like i'm i got this this one i hummed in.

Hot for quite a while at that little eddy at the bed and um at the last very last i was going to pull pull out and go portage and i was like ah don't be a wuss you know what i mean and i i went and the second i went the water hit me on the on a 45 degree angle so i.

I think the waves were coming down here and i hit it like this i think i needed to hit it more straight but i couldn't because if i went more straight it was gonna get pulled into this thing so i thought i could power through it and go like at a 45 and i couldn't the water was water so very strong so it hit me on the.

Back 45 degree angle on the back end of my canoe like behind me on my right and as soon as the water hit it it filled in the canoe and it started tipping me this way and i instinctively went this way i think i dropped the.

Paddle at that point went this way and tried to rock back over which i what should have done is stuck the paddle in and pry it off i believe i don't know but i believe anyways i it was hard to think i i'm not i don't have any experience with it so i dropped the paddle and luckily the.

Yolk and the backpack stayed in the canoe which is insane because if the backpack would have been lost which i thought it was when i was in the water um things would have been a bit different story i wouldn't have had my inreach and my change of clothes would have been gone and there was no cars that drove.

Down that road maybe one in the middle of the night so um it would have been it would have been bad so things that i'm going to change from now on whenever i'm going to do any kind of white water right so in flat water still i'm not concerned about it but in.

White water my backpack is going to get lashed to my boat there's enough air in the backpack that it's going to flow and and i know the canoe is going to float now too because i have experience with it with the little uh baffles in the front and back there with the air.

So i'm going to lash my and tell me if this is horribly wrong but i think this is correct i'm going to lash my backpack into the back of the boat i'm going to have a tether on my yoke but not too long because i don't want to get it wrapped around me if i dump and it's like a tether spinning in the water so a.

Tether on my yoke a secondary paddle which i've never been a fan of before never thought i needed but now i do in white water if there's any kind of chance of white water on a trip i will bring a secondary paddle the problem with these small boats is that there's really not all that much room you know what i mean so when you get a.

Secondary paddle in there and last year you're losing a little bit of room it's fine it's just not necessary on white on on flat water and that's what i've mostly done anyways another problem is with these pack boats a single blade paddle really doesn't do the trick and you're not going to bring a secondary double blade so i will bring.

A secondary single blade and that will at least be able to do me something on a river it's it's fine but this new boat i'm getting is not a pack boat and i can paddle it with a single blade or double blade and it's big enough to put a secondary blade in so secondary single blade.

Lashed into the bow underneath the seats my inreach on me oh and my pfd was on me which sometimes isn't on white in flat water as you've seen but in whitewater i'm pretty a stickler about it and i'm glad i did because it would have been a different story again i remember thinking at one point like oh i'm glad my head came back up above water like.

That's pretty bad my feet were bouncing off the rocks on the bottom of the boulders and i was tucking them up to try to not um get them caught in and pinned because you wouldn't be able to unpin yourself right like against the force of the water so.

My inreach will be on me at all times in white water my pfd will be on me at all times in white water i will have my backpack lashed in like i said um what else everything that is loose in the in the in the boat needs to be lashed in i need to be prepared to dunk a helmet.

Wouldn't be a bad idea if it's any kind of serious white water um and that and that's the road i want to start taking it just you want to get down the smoke's probably bothering you come here bro that's right i want to start taking with with canoe tripping is mixing in some.

White water and some flat water together just to have a little bit more fun to change things up so anyways i did learn lessons you know what i mean it wasn't just i'm almost glad it happened because i'm almost like laxatical and that kind of stuff like yeah i'll be fine you know what i mean and um it really was the.

Worst case scenario except for me being next to a road if i wasn't next to a road if i had to hike out like really far it would have been really bad but here's the thing i fell in i was hyped i was borderline hypothermic in a blizzard and i got changed and camped out the night and everything was fine i ate supper and i.

Was warm again a couple things could have been different if i lost my backpack different story no pfd different story not near a road different story so a good kick in the ass for me to get my stuff prepared better and it was silly of me to not be so not be prepared.

But again um i was planning on portaging and yeah it's just joe way so the joey needs to change obviously you got to come home to the family right i got i see i saw a comment saying why didn't you have her just bring you a paddle the next morning because i was.

Done you know i mean and actually i ended up getting sick from it too because it's falling in and stuff but not until the day after but i was just done like i will go back and i want to go back the fishing was crap it was way too cold i didn't catch up i didn't get a bite and the river was swollen that what the secondary river that i went up.

Wanted to go up with swollen stuff i couldn't make it up so i want to go back anyways so there's no point in me just having to bring a paddle then um and then coming back so i want to go do that trip in about a month anyways and we are at the creekside camp just going to hang out here for the day beauty's chilling maybe we'll go try.

Our hand at some fishing it's life man things go good for a while and catch a couple shitty breaks i take full responsibility for everything with tripper i really do i feel very bad about it one of the worst decisions in my life.

Was getting him it's not that i didn't love him it's just i shouldn't have been you guys saw him right and then for everything that happened his arms his stomach just his neurotic.

Ness poor guy rip trip anyways like i said i don't know that uh i'm not in a hurry to get a dog so the right one comes along and yeah we got the life for it you know.

What i mean got the place for it i'd love to have a companion i'm just i'm not overly going going out of my way to seek it out well guys that's enough of that right all right.

It's a nice day we're out in the woods no beauty got a labradoodle who would have thought i wonder what scout's thinking you